Its been a long day, its a quarter to eleven,
we coming down harder than a statue of Lenin...



How are you all this evening? I trust the days have treated you well? Good to hear, of course, unless you aren't well. If the latter is the case, then i wish you the best. Im broed, rather tired, yet i'm not in the mood for sleeping. Hopefully Eric will be dropping by to leave the drumset, so i'll have something to fawn over for the next 72 hours or so (barring work, of course). You know, to tide me over til bloc party. Oh man. Bloc party will be the event of the century, we've already been over how much this will mean to me. Nothing can go wrong, nothing will go wrong, everything must stay as it should be for this. This is even better than my birthday, in fact, i think i'll just dedicate my birthday to this concert.

England seems very far away right now (mainly because it is) and my dreams of moving there seem to be moving further and further away. I don't know why, really, it's not like i've ever been there, but it's just that england represents the future for me, it's the only thing i've really "decided" on ,and now its another year or two from the present. But there is good news (there's always good news). In june i'll be going to New Zealand for a stint (charity work and such), so hopefully it'll be fun. New Zealand. Wow. Its one of those places i never thought of visiting, it's australia, yet not as common, and im sure there's just as many different types of people there as there are here, but to tell you the truth, i can't wait; i really need a change. I'll miss everyone terribly and such, you know that love, i'll especially miss you, but i don't know what else to do about that. I'll take as many pictures and write poems and maybe keep a journal of what i see and do (i most likely won't have/want a computer with me). I just want to feel new again, i suppose, i haven't felt too excited over anything in a long while (barring bloc party and turning 18). And granted love, this isn't what i consider my greatest desire, but it's running a pretty good 2nd place.

Life seems to be moving along, smoothly at times, terribly slow at others, but i think everything will work out just fine. And true, im an idealistic optimist, but i have a cynical view on things too, so i think the view can be pretty accurate.The cynicism matched with the optimism gives a middle view in which things on both sides of the fence can become clear. Something bad happens, i find it ironic and irritating, but perpetual optimism keeps me from staying that way for very long.

I just got a new job, its at Taisho with eitan. The guy was pretty psyched about having another guy work, so i hope it's not a bad job. He seems nice. My first day is tommorrow. Wish me well. or not, whichever you prefer.